25 mayo, 2010

.remorseful ambiguity.

i was once a book. a book with pages of pages, and yet pages none. fill my pages, i tried. allow the ink to spread down the page from the tip of the pen, from the stroke of it all to form lines. contort your lines to make shapes. Nay, that these shapes dare form letters, and from them words. ink not my mind, asunder my attempt at writing. less you should find that neither pen nor the book would express my inept emotions. but neither am i the book nor the pen. i find comfort that i am not the book. everyone was a book, but books were meant to be read. what of the ink? if the ink were the book, would it escape the world it was written to? had it a say, would it deny its truth? pray that it would not escape the truth of the Writer.
let us assume that we are all Writers. what is our truth? what medium carries our soul and rings true to the hearts of other Writers? had i once been told that my soul could not transcend my imagination, you would come to find me a Writer no more. The oppressed have a terrible knack to horde their soul. indulge me for my truth, young Writer. u have neither friend nor foe but the ink to which you have been given. will you find for yourself to be a book? after all, we all were once books. books with pages of pages, and yet pages none.


19 mayo, 2010

.even the most dismayed.


Lay down your armor, brave soldier.
The battle is won, your wounds are healed.

This quarrel was not yours, but you fought.
Your comrades have died, but you tread still.
Look, alas, there is hope.
Nay, that you have given so much.

Find heart and treasure your loss.
Stay 'till turmoil allots your heart.
Find courage and endeavor your soul.
Leave when your heart is lost.

Find yet another comrade,
For his path was quelled by dismay and ignited for recklessness.
Breathe in him words to qualm and stir him!
Say to him this, that he may also believe.

Brave and indignant soldier:
You have not given your soul,
You have not given your heart,
Yet your courage grows deep!

What is your claim?
That you have loved not,
Nor felt the warmth of grace's arms.
You, too, will be lost.

'In Regards to Your Sweet Taste' by Mark Palomino

In the hall of the eloquent gathering -
To these men who stood so tall and proud,
'Beware the man who bears wisdom!'
His voice, the wind; his gaze, the ocean.
...They were strong until we sat them down.

I am the culprit and you my constituent!
We kill for greed and thirst for pleasure.
Ha! Though they suffer, we do not mourn - we live to kill!
And when they die, they die in vain.

Their eyes so dull yet full of lust -
To gain a name...to be alive!
Their faces pale from the air so cold..
'Abhor your agony! Embrace your destruction!'

Isn't it beautiful?
How they grasp their life!
...and how we tease! slowly consuming it...
Oh yes, they will surely die. None will remain.

But the man still stood.
With cup in hand - his face gaunt and body frail.
His cry to God shrieked - through the calamity it rang!
"Oh my God, I'm dying to know!
As my heart is troubled and soul amiss -
Would you forgive my unbelief?"

Lonely soul, conceived but forgot;
Take this to heart, that you may noy whither:
'Not that you were them, for they were not!'
Whore hearts horde souls.

"God has forsaken us!" cried the child.
"The great 'I am' is to us the 'I am not',
He shook the earth to bring His Son,
But to us, His love, was never got."

Their breaths were heavy,
Their frail bodies cold.
One by one they fell into the arms of death -
And in our arms we kept them well.